Today is a normal eating day. 1500cals. Seems like so much. But I need to keep up my strength while training for the marathon. I noticed with my last run is was slow and sluggish.
Last night was ok. I had a great time with my friend. I had half of a chicken wrap and a few fries. Then purged at the restaurant. While ordering I was so anxious and started getting hot flashes. It took everything I had to not eat it all because it was so good. The reason I purged was because I knew I had cheated on my diet and I couldn't handle all the thoughts and anxiety. Once it was out I felt great. Throwing up is getting easier. Not sure how I feel about that. I'm able to be quieter and it only takes a few minutes to empty my stomach.
I did tell Dean yesterday about the binging/purging I've been doing the past couple months. He didn't say much. I know he was processing the information and I'm sure by now he has a "plan" on how to deal with it. He's a fixer. I couldn't keep it a secret from him any longer. However, he do NOT know about this blog.
I was able to weigh myself this morning while Dean was in the shower. 165.4! I'm having a pretty good losing week. I was hoping to be under 160 by Easter, but oh well.
Well, I don't really have much to say as the day just started. I may update at the end of the day. Have a good day all!
me too dear, my love never know bout my purging.
ReplyDeletei sat in toilet, run the water n took it all out.
its painful. but i had to do what i have to do.
wish me luck dear.
I purge when I go to resturaunts also. I get an anxiety attack though if someone walks through the door. One time a girl walked in and asked if I was ok. I told her I just found out I was pregnant and having morning sickness haha. I'm glad to hear you're losing so wonderfully this week. Keep it up!
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DeleteTrying to cut calories majorly while training for a marathon is a losing battle. Ideal calorie intake for each person varies so much there really isn’t a golden number, but when training you should really be eating around 2,000 – 2,500 calories. Your body can’t recover from each run and improve if you don’t give it the nutrients to do so. There are some helpful eating tips on www.choosemyplate.gov, though I don’t always agree with their ratio of grains/fruits/veggies/etc. It’s a good starting guideline, though.
The hard thing is when you deprive your body of calories; it will automatically store everything as fat (it’s in emergency “survival” mode). I know it’s hard to not feel guilty while eating, but if you stick to the healthy foods when you do eat, you will be benefiting yourself for the long haul. Maintaining a healthy body weight is impossible when starving yourself, but making healthy food choices is a great way to keep excess weight off.
If you have any questions on running, nutrition, or you just need to talk, hit me up! You have my number :) and I’m always there for you!
2000/2500! That's alot. Are you suppose to eat that much even on the days you don't run? I know I may have to change the diet around to do my running but I'm trying to do it with the bare minimum. I don't want to stop TLT and I don't want to give up on the marathon. Is there a way to do both or is that just not going to happen?
DeleteTLT doesn’t exactly sound conducive to marathon training… I don’t know too much about it, but a highly restrictive diet keeps your body from the nutrients it needs to recover. So here’s my thoughts on nutrition and such (excuse the rambling)…
DeleteI couldn’t tell you how many calories I eat in a day because I have no clue :s One of the keys to running (and eating) is to listen to your body – what are you craving and what is causing these cravings? I was feeling pretty rough last month because I wasn’t eating enough healthy fats (butter, avocados, almonds, etc.). Jill suggested that I put more butter on my food – very contradictory to America’s nutrition ideas – and that this may help. She was right, I wasn’t getting enough good fat in my diet and I feel 100 times better! I don’t go butter-crazy, but do put it on toast now and use it when cooking. One of my favorites: steamed sweet potatoes with butter and cinnamon! Avocadoes are really good for you, too, and very filling, but I only buy them on occasion (when Hugo’s has them on sale!).
Anyways – I’m writing you a novel here, but nutrition has always fascinated me. If I could go back to school, that’s what I would study… there are so many misconceptions about food in this culture! I guess the main point on eating, from my point of view, is keep it natural – fruits, veggies, meat, some grain – and try to avoid boxed foods and meals. When you do buy something in a box, go for the option with less ingredients and ones that don’t sound like toxic chemicals! Eat in moderation but don’t deprive yourself. My emotions feed any eating issues I’ve had, so when I do my best to keep a healthy mindset on this, I’m in a better place eating-wise… Here is a site with great healthy recipes: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/healthy-recipes/RE00082
I ran a few miles this morning at an easy pace to loosen up my legs after yesterday’s hard run and to prepare for the Saturday long run. I don’t eat before an AM run, but always eat right after. BUT this depends on how my body feels. Before an AM long run, I’ll sometimes have peanut butter on toast with a banana or something like that. This is what I am probably going to be eating today:
BREAKFAST:
2 eggs scrambled with onions, peppers, mushrooms, and cheese
1 c. orange juice
1 slice of toast, w/ butter
AM Snack:
Coffee (I love coffee, but do my best to stick around 2 cups a day of plain black)
1 slice fruit pizza – not healthy stuff, but a treat here and there is fine!
LUNCH:
Leftover hamburger w/ onions, peppers, mushrooms, and cheese on a spinach salad
A handful of almonds for dessert (they are Blue Diamond chocolate flavored ones! Not chocolate covered, but still just the right amount of sweet)
PM Snack:
1 apple
SUPPER:
Who knows, I’m heading to visit family and at my parent’s mercy! Hehe. I just eat in moderation and not dwell on it.
Just remember – Jesus enjoyed food and we can, too! We just need to keep it at the right priority level in our lives!