My Somewhat Secret Life: The Flu

Friday, May 11, 2012

The Flu

I have the flu. I only get it once a year but when I do, I feel like I'm dieing. I don't handle being sick well at all. I curl up in a ball and cry a lot. Two nights ago I didn't sleep well and had the chills. I was hoping it was nothing but then I started throwing up. Dang it! I threw up off and on all day yesterday but slept really well last night. When I woke up this morning I thought I was doing better. Nope. I'm guessing I have at least another day of this. Ick! Happy Friday everyone, and Happy Mothers Day weekend to all you hot mamas out there!

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Katie ElizabethMay 11, 2012 at 7:32 AM
Damn girl. I'm sorry. I hope you get to feeling better before Mother's Day!
XOXO
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About Me (long version)

I'm 29, I've been married for 11 years, and have 8 wonderful children. When I was 14/15 I became anorexic/bulimia. I don't remember just how thin I became but Dean (my husband) told me if I wore a tight shirt you could see my ribs. Oh how I wish that was the case now...Anyway, I was in a lot of bad relationships and into drugs, drinking and partying like the world was coming to an end.

At 17 I became pregnant with my first child. Shortly after my 18th birthday Dean and I got married, finished high school, got our own place, and continued to have kids. I gained a lot of weight having kids. Eating for 2 really isn't necessary, the weight doesn't melt off like people say, nursing or not. I gave in to every craving and enjoyed feeling full. I gained, and gained, and gained. I became a disgusting ball of bubbling fat. I couldn't move well, had trouble even walking, and forget about playing with the kids. After number 4 I hit my highest weight. I've slowly lost over the years and stayed around 230/250.

After my 7th baby I got into running and lost alot of weight quickly. I got down to 150 and then my eating disorder kicked back in. I had baby 8 and went back up to 230ish. I've worked to lose the weight again and am down to 170/175 but I still have a long way to go. All I can think about is numbers. The scale, calories, how much I burn when I run, and FOOD FOOD FOOD. I hate it.

So, now I'm trying to lose all the disgusting fat that has invaded my body. I know there is a beautiful girl under all this nastiness. Here is my journey to find that girl.